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★ 2012



So, I'm sorry for my stupid previous post. Hmmm I'm so done with myself. Btw, hi KYO thanks for the following kehkehkeh. I love his tweets so much. Soothing myself with his great poems sometimes. 

 So, actually. I'm thinking about this upcoming new year. I mean our new year. Our 2013. I'm going to miss everything in 2012. Of course, part of me still want to stick with 2012 mood but the other part of me I want to change the mood to 2013 eagerly.

 Well guys. Lemme ask you something.

 Do you know that feeling when we miss something but we can't do anything to get rid of it? Do you know that feeling when we want something but we can't do anything to get it? Do you know that feeling when we want to say something but we can't say any single thing of it? Do you know that feeling when we love someone but we can't tell that person how much that our love stand for him? Do you know that feeling when your love one cheated on you but you can't even say anything and just cry? And, do you know that feeling when we afraid to lose someone but we can't tell him for his own good?

 I know that feeling. I've been through all that feeling along this beautiful 2012. 

 Tbh, that feelings really hurts me. A lot. It gives me lots of pains and left it with the scars. Nothing can heal it. Nothing. But that scars actually teach me something special. Something that I learn during  my 15 years old. Something what we call strength. Strength.

 What I gain from those pains and scares are actually strength. In my 2012 year, I learn to be strong. I learn to be studyholic. I learn to be pure. I learn to be honest. I learn to be a good student. I learn to be a good lover. I learn to be a good friend, I learn to be a good muslim. And I learn to be me. Myself. 

 I've made so many mistakes in 2012. And I have to admit that I'm actually regretting all that. How I wish I could ever turn back the times, undo them and try to fix everything. But unfortunately. I can't. Haha. Nevermind. I am a human. And humans do mistakes everytime. There's no word perfection in my life but half perfection is my word of life. 

 So actually. What I really want to say is : I just want to highlight to everyone that don't worry or feel bad with your past. Your past is the reason why you feel strong today and in the future. So, while we're still young. Do mistakes. Cry always. Smile more. And be in trouble even more. Gain your strength.

Live while we young. Laugh. Be bitchy. But stay with your iman. Tepuk dada tanya selera. 

 No matter what happen in your 2012, believe me. You will miss it in the future. So smile. Night.